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  Copyright © 2015 by Julie Cross and Mark Perini

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  Halfway perfect / Julie Cross and Mark Perini.

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  Summary: Eve's time as a fashion model nearly destroyed her and now she is determined to build a career behind the camera after landing a photography internship in New York City, bringing her face to face with her dark past, her ex, and an up-and-coming male model named Alex who is falling for her.

  (trade paper : alk. paper) [1. Fashion—Fiction. 2. Photography—Fiction. 3. Models (Persons)—Fiction. 4. Love—Fiction.] I. Perini, Mark. II. Title.

  PZ7.C88272Hal 2015

  [Fic]—dc23

  2014036352

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  Contents

  Front Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Chapter 1: Eve

  Chapter 2: Alex

  Chapter 3: Eve

  Chapter 4: Alex

  Chapter 5: Eve

  Chapter 6: Alex

  Chapter 7: Eve

  Chapter 8: Alex

  Chapter 9: Eve

  Chapter 10: Alex

  Chapter 11: Eve

  Chapter 12: Alex

  Chapter 13: Eve

  Chapter 14: Alex

  Chapter 15: Eve

  Chapter 16: Alex

  Chapter 17: Eve

  Chapter 18: Alex

  Chapter 19: Eve

  Chapter 20: Alex

  Chapter 21: Eve

  Chapter 22: Alex

  Chapter 23: Eve

  Chapter 24: Alex

  Chapter 25: Eve

  Chapter 26: Alex

  Chapter 27: Eve

  Chapter 28: Alex

  Chapter 29: Eve

  Chapter 30: Alex

  Chapter 31: Alex

  Chapter 32: Eve

  Chapter 33: Alex

  Chapter 34: Eve

  Chapter 35: Alex

  Chapter 36: Eve

  Chapter 37: Alex

  Chapter 38: Eve

  Chapter 39: Alex

  Chapter 40: Eve

  Chapter 41: Alex

  Chapter 42: Eve

  Chapter 43: Alex

  Chapter 44: Eve

  Chapter 45: Alex

  Chapter 46: Eve

  Chapter 47: Alex

  Chapter 48: Eve

  Chapter 49: Alex

  Chapter 50: Eve

  Chapter 51: Alex

  Chapter 52: Eve

  Chapter 53: Alex

  Chapter 54: Eve

  Acknowledgments

  About the Authors

  Back Cover

  “Imperfection is beauty.”

  —Marilyn Monroe

  Chapter 1: Eve

  October 2, 6:45 a.m.

  I cut everything in half.

  And by everything, I mean everything—buildings, vehicles, trees…people.

  Through the lens of my camera, I attempt to slice a billboard in half, allowing only Conan’s right half into my shot. I shift the camera down lower and zoom in on a man seated at a table across the busy street. He’s got a coffee cup in one hand and uses the other to press his cell phone to his ear. On one side he’s Wall Street and the other half—the side with his fingers gently wrapped around the paper cup and his eyes staring straight ahead—he’s an artist deep in thought. Maybe an author or a musician. Or a journalist who’s feeling the emotional impact of a recent devastating story.

  I lower my camera and tuck it into my bag as a woman approaches. She’s exactly as I pictured her—fortysomething, brown hair in a messy ponytail, khakis cut off at the knee, tan lines in all the wrong places from hours of shooting outdoors, a giant bag of equipment slung gracefully over her shoulder.

  I stand up and stick my hand out to shake hers. “I’m such an admirer of your work. I love the—”

  “Eve Nowakowski, right? Professor Larson’s student?”

  I have Professor Larson for three classes this semester as part of the photography program at Columbia.

  “Yes, I’m—”

  Janessa Fields cuts me off again, waving a hand as if to say she doesn’t have time or patience for my fangirl moment. And just like that, we’re walking at a brisk New Yorker’s pace and I’m stumbling to follow, despite the fact that she’s the one lugging fifty pounds of equipment.

  “Do you need some help with your bag?” I ask.

  “I’ve got it, thanks.” It’s clear this is not one of those times where you should insist on helping anyway. “Professor Larson is the only person in the world who can talk me into allowing an eighteen-year-old student from Boston—”

  “Actually, I’m from Indiana.”

  She glares at me, and I bite down on my tongue. “Professor Larson was my mentor years ago, so just try to stay out of the way today, understood?”

  “Professor Larson didn’t mention what you’re working on today.”

  “That’s because I didn’t tell him.”

  She opens the door to a building and my pulse speeds up. I know this building. I’ve been here before. “Isn’t this Seventeen?”

  “Exactly why I didn’t mention the client to Professor Larson.” Janessa Fields rolls her eyes. “I was afraid if you knew the client, you might have come with a clan of screaming friends.”

  No, but I might not have shown up had I known.

  “I’m just picking up some equipment for the shoot today. This isn’t my usual cup of tea, but we all have to do some editorials now and again.”

  Not her usual cup of tea? That’s like the biggest understatement of the year. I mean, seriously? Capturing third-world poverty on film versus taking photos for editorials on prom makeup or how to get your crush to notice you—the difference is greater than the distance between New York City and Africa.

  Walking through this building and toward the elevator, I’m already feeling sick to my stomach, fighting the urge to turn around and run. I’m supposed to be studying photography with a woman who can make tragedy look beautiful in a photo, not someone photographing teen models for an article about how to tell i
f your boyfriend’s cheating on you.

  Janessa yells at me to keep up, then she leaves me in the magazine’s lobby while she gets her equipment from an intern. I stand at the end of a long, carpeted hallway. The walls are lined with framed covers from dozens of issues.

  I stroll slowly past each one, looking at the gorgeous, perfect models, knowing more than I’d like to about what goes into those shots. I pause on an issue from four years ago. The cover features a brown-haired girl from Indiana—International Model and Only Fifteen Years Old: Eve Castle Tells All in an Exclusive Interview with Seventeen. She’s thin in a Kate Moss way, with gangly limbs and a flat chest. She was nearly six feet tall when she was in middle school, and boys used to stare at that flat chest because her training bra was at eye level for them.

  My hair hasn’t changed much in four years and neither has my height. But she’s different. Her eyes are different, and she looks happier than I feel now. I almost want to reach into the picture and shake her, tell her what’s going to happen to her. Maybe I can make it so she stays happy.

  “Wasn’t he just adorable in that issue?” someone says behind me. “Hard to find that blond, youthful, all-American look. That’s probably why we’ve had him on the cover three times.”

  He? Fifteen-year-old me may have been flat-chested, but I didn’t look like a boy.

  My gaze drifts to the right. To the guy on the cover of a different issue. His arms are wrapped around the waist of a perky cheerleader-type model with shiny black hair. The headline at the top reads: How to Win Over Your Crush This Valentine’s Day.

  I hear the swish of Janessa’s equipment bag against her water-resistant khakis. “Absolutely adorable,” she says. “Middle school boys make excellent sex symbols.”

  My heart pounds as Janessa’s gaze slides left, to the cover beside the “middle school boy’s” photo. I glance over my shoulder at the perky twentysomething intern. She looks a little red in the face but doesn’t respond to Janessa’s crude remark. Janessa nods toward the photo of the guy and the girl together. “Actually, I think this kid’s in our shoot today. Lucky you. You might get to meet every girl’s Valentine’s Day crush.”

  Yeah. Can’t wait for that.

  Does Janessa recognize me? Does she care? Is anyone else at the job going to recognize me? Surely I’m old news by now. What if I’m wrong and I get thrown into a situation where I have to explain why I left modeling? Might be best to take off now, just in case.

  But you don’t get into a school like Columbia without putting grades above emotional stability—at least some of the time. And I can’t imagine running away and disappointing Professor Larson after he used his connections to set this up for me.

  Janessa turns around and launches herself down the hall. I let out a big sigh before following her.

  When we get to the studio, Janessa introduces me to the producer, who introduces us to several wardrobe and makeup people. No one gives me a first glance, let alone a second glance. For a moment, I relax. I’m in the clear.

  Then I see him. Red hair gelled and spiked to perfection, slim dress pants perfectly pressed, and a button-down shirt half-untucked in that trendy way. He’s barking into his cell phone, flashing a tight smile at the producer.

  Wes Danes.

  The air is sucked out of my lungs, my legs instantly weak.

  My first thought hits: What’s he doing here?

  Followed by the second: I need to stay far away from Wes Danes.

  Unfortunately, I’ve been staring at him like an idiot for a good thirty seconds instead of finding something to hide behind.

  Wes gives me a double take. But he plays it cool. He doesn’t show any sign of surprise beyond a quick widening of his eyes. He slowly makes his way over, walking past me with a slight nod toward the elevator.

  Don’t do it, don’t follow him.

  But I can’t stop my feet. He nods and they move. Traitors.

  I hold my breath and follow the trail of his designer cologne through the elevator doors. As they close, the walls press in on me from all sides.

  “How are you, Evie?” he asks in a quiet voice so different from the commanding assertive voice he’d used on the phone moments ago.

  “I…I’m…” The doors open, letting us out on the first floor. I trail Wes down a hall and into a secluded corridor.

  He spins around to face me. “What are you doing here?”

  “It’s just…I have this…” I can’t look him in the eye. “It’s a long story.”

  He steps closer—too close—and scrubs his hands over his face. This is Vulnerable Wes. The guy I fell in love with. It’d be much easier to have this chat with arrogant, It’s-Not-Personal-It’s-Business Wes. “Who are you working with? What agent? And what have they booked for you? Why didn’t you call me, Evie? After everything—”

  “I’m not working,” I say, finally able to look him in the eye. “I’m here for a photography class. My professor—”

  His eyebrows lift. “You’re in college? In New York?”

  “Yeah,” I nod. “At Columbia.”

  The surprise is evident on his face, and I feel the tiniest twinge of satisfaction. A lot can happen in two years, Wes.

  Suddenly, a memory from two years ago returns. Him yelling at me, his warm breath in my face. The crash of the chair against the china cabinet, glass shattering all over his apartment floor. I remember the panic I fought that day. It was like my brain and body were completely torn in two—half of me ready to bolt out the door, the other half clinging to our yearlong relationship. That night I had walked through his door ready to tell him I wanted out, ready to tell his boss that I needed a new agent, but the second Wes held me and said he was sorry, I caved. It took me two more weeks to leave, and I haven’t seen or spoken to Wes since.

  Why does a tiny part of me still feel drawn to him? I hate him. I know I hate him. But he made me love him. Apparently two years isn’t long enough to make that fade. It should be, but it isn’t.

  “Yo, Wes!” someone shouts from down the corridor.

  Wes springs into action. “We’ll talk later,” he whispers.

  No, we won’t. Not if I can help it.

  He’s already walking away before I can respond. He won’t know where to find me, right? Why didn’t I lie and say I went to NYU? But I guess Wes knows me better than that. I’ve had my heart set on going to Columbia since I started modeling in New York City when I was fourteen.

  I recognize the guy Wes is talking to. He’s the model that Janessa called a middle schooler. Except he looks older now. That cover photo was from a few years ago. On my walk to the elevator, I feel his eyes burning a hole in the side of my face. I just look straight ahead, wishing away the heat flaring on my cheeks.

  Does he recognize me? He might. Or maybe he’s checking me out. I guess that’s possible. Statistics are in favor of him just being a guy and staring at me for guy reasons and not personal ones.

  Since I’ve returned to New York for school, I’ve been looking for a nice guy to date because that seemed so…I don’t know…normal. But this guy would not fit into that mold. Not even close. But I’m still in favor of being ogled rather than being recognized as Eve Castle.

  I avoid eye contact and slide into the elevator the second the doors open, but not before I hear Wes giving muffled instructions. Something about impressing Elana or “making nice with her.”

  I don’t even want to know what the hell that means.

  Chapter 2: Alex

  October 2, 7:30 a.m.

  After escaping the hungover intern sleeping in my bedroom, I was hoping for a few minutes of calm on the way to this shoot, but of course my phone rings. Wes. Before nine in the morning. Can’t be good.

  “Finally! I’ve left you three messages in the last two hours!”

  “My phone was in my room—”

  “An
d you weren’t?” he asks, then keeps talking before I can answer and explain that I’d left a girl, along with my phone, in my room. And slept on the couch. “Never mind. I don’t want details. I’m at the studio. We need to chat before you head up to hair and makeup.”

  “I’ll be there in five,” I assure him.

  “Good. See you in a few.”

  He hangs up with no further explanation. He’s at the studio? Wes has my schedule, but that doesn’t mean he actually shows up at jobs. I don’t know any agents who do that.

  Weird. Now I’m getting a little nervous. I thought this would be an easy morning. There’s not too much on the line for me here. Unless I somehow managed to get myself fired? That would suck. Majorly. Getting fired from even the smallest jobs can damage your reputation.

  When I get to the studio, I spot Wes in the lobby, talking to some brunette.

  “Yo, Wes,” I say so he knows I’m here.

  He breaks away from his conversation. My gaze follows the girl he had been talking to. I know her from somewhere. It’s possible I’ve worked with her before on a job. She’s pretty—very pretty. And thin, but not runway-model thin. The girl lights up the button and waits for the elevator. Before I can figure it out, I hear the elevator ding, and my attention snaps back to Wes who looks a little distracted. “What’s up?”

  He closes his eyes for a second as if to refocus. “One of the agency’s newest clients—Elana—is also in the shoot today. She’s an import from France. Really green, but huge potential. I need you to make nice with her, all right?”

  I scratch the back of my head. Wes and his assignments. Last night it was a GQ intern and today it’s a new French model. “Okay?”

  He leans in closer and lowers his voice. “When you get paired together today, a little chemistry certainly won’t hurt you at all. Elana’s pretty young, but let’s keep that on the DL.”

  “Got it. No problem.”

  Wes gives me his best agent grin. “I knew I could count on you. This could be a great opportunity. A lot of doors could swing open after this shoot.”

  I relax, relieved that I haven’t done anything wrong, and then my brain catches up, replaying his words. “Wait… Exactly how young are we talking?”